And the haze represents my life.

It was time to choose subjects to take in Year 3 next year. However, being indecisive, I could not come to a decision within a few hours.

Subjects that are offered include Language Arts, Higher Chinese (well, nobody allowed to quit it), Core Mathematics (Elementary Math with a little of additional math), Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Computer Studies, Advanced Mathematics (additional math which includes calculus), Art, Music, Geography, History, and Introduction to Human Societies (WTH?)

I decided to choose the subjects according to my end-year results.

Eng: 70/100

Higher Chi: 59/100 (Amazingly I didn't fail)

Literature: 72/100

Art: 66/100

Physical Sciences: 97.5/100

Life Sciences: 79/100 (Whoops, careless mistakes)

Geography: 87/100

History: 94/100

Mathematics: 89/100

So I decided to choose triple sciences and history. But I was told by others that advanced math is very important as well. Calculus is used a lot in physics, and not learning it could mean doing very badly for that subject. Yet, I knew all the topics that will be tested in history next year, which means it may be better for me to score well in that area. That's the first problem.

Then, since I was doing really badly for higher chinese, I was deciding whether to drop to normal chinese or not. But then my chinese teacher advised me not to, so I didn't. But I was still afraid that I made a wrong choice, until I was told that we are not allowed to quit higher chinese. That made me feel much better, yet worse, for I will be taking my O-Levels for chinese next year instead of the following year.

Lastly, having no interest in biology, I didn't know whether I should drop it or not.

Hell, I thought for a few hours pondering over the dilemmas.

Until I finally came up with a decision, although I'm still afraid that I made the wrong choice. I would choose Lang Arts, Higher Chinese, Core Math, Introduction to human societies (these are subjects we must choose; we can't make do without them), triple sciences, and advanced math. I decided that history would not benefit me in the future. Besides, humans never learn from mistakes. That's why we had world wars one and two.

But I still don't know if I made a right choice or not. Therefore, the haze that blankets over the entire Singapore Island depicts my life - a blurred future.

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