The Black World Of Solitude.

Friday, 30 December 2011

After I saw another guitar review of a guitar product, I initially wanted to buy it. However after some thought, I decided not to.

Sometimes I don't really get why I'm spending so much time and devotion on the guitar. Of course as a hobby it's ok, but if I were to spend that much and want to practise that much (especially since I got the amPlug, I can practise all night), then wouldn't it be a waste if my future doesn't depend on it for a living? And yes, you know what I mean.

However the hard truth is that I'm in Singapore. A place with hardly (or no) music industry. There's almost no support for local music (I myself do not know many) and there certainly isn't much opportunity to gain recognition. Just because the singaporean mindset and stand is that if there are songs from other countries and they are good, what is the point of listening to those from Singapore? And I'm not blaming them for this mindset, because I heard some songs from local Singaporean artists and I personally didn't like them (it could be because I am a metalhead). There is a thriving underground heavy metal scene here in Singapore but of course, it isn't well known, and not many people like such heavy metal subgenres.

Ok, so maybe there is, but these people had to go to Taiwan/China/Malaysia or wherever it is and become successful there, then singaporeans will find out about them. And that means chinese or malay pop songs which unfortunately I'm not that interested in. Metal forever

So, is spending too much on your hobby a bad thing? My band wants to pursue the rock star dream, but of course, it's going to be a very hard one. And besides there's no guarantee that we'll stay together; nobody can predict the future (damn, if 2012 happens that would definitely put a stop to the dream). And here in Singapore, its going to be hard unless we move to another country. And then you have to fight and outshine the others to be recognised. *Sigh*

Even if not pursuing the rock star dream, fighting to outshine others can be found in life. Apparently its something you can't escape from, and it seems like living in a large community makes everything worse and everyone more competitive. And living in a small space (yeah ;D) makes it even worse. In school we do have to compete with so many people to be the top student, but I can't really be bothered, especially when there's all the scholars from china and vietnam. And then probably at work (I can't say much, I'm only a student) you have to outshine others to get a better post or whatever....

Life's not a journey, it's a competition which ends when you are defeated by death.

:/

And now school's going to start really soon (just 3-4 more days I think). Its time for more shit. But then again, if I don't work hard I don't have to live anymore (unless I live in the rural areas overseas) because education = work, unfortunately. Its a paperchase society in Singapore; the more qualifications the better your job. With so many people being educated that means a lot of competition (no I'm not saying that mass education is bad). And not to mention the fact that once we start working, the time we stop is when we die.

And then the natural alternative is to choose a path not many will choose (such as that mentioned above, and of course, I mean in Singapore) but it is indeed going to take a lot of time and effort and there would be a lot of setbacks to be faced.

Ah well. Guess I'll just leave it up to fate. But hey, we choose our own future...

:/

*edit* and I find it interesting that my post comes out in different colours. I set it to white, but the last time it was yellow.... and now pink.

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人之命，若无意，何生乎？23:21